Parenting is a tough but rewarding gig. My kids have gotten more adorable yet fiercely independent as they have grown. Some days they are dressed in matching clothes and look awesome. Other days they stay in the underwear all day and fight me about every meal I make. I try my hardest to maintain a happy, healthy, “sane”, sanctuary for them to call home.
To do that, there are things I will not ever apologize for..
Being Me – Right now I am depressed, have anxiety and don’t want people in my space. I’m not sorry that I met you, I’m not sorry I backed off and I’m not sorry I’m taking my own time to heal with my family so that we always have a safe, happy place. Our home. I’m not sorry that I don’t invite people over or that I’m not out meeting new people all the time or meeting people at all. Being me has my focus somewhere else. On my family.
No Play Dates On School Days – We have a routine. We live in a neighborhood full of kids. Kids my kids ride the bus with and know from school. Kids that want to play all the time. It’s actually pretty cool. But Delylah doesn’t get off the bus until 4:30 sometimes. Their bedtime is 8pm. Between that time we have to do homework, dinner and bathe. There is no time for friends to come over. They get to play outside and have fun, just not with company. That is what you call a “tease”. Sure you can come over for the 15 minutes before dinner. Or the 15 minutes after dinner before showering. NO. You can’t. Bummer.
My Car Might Smell – When you get in my car, it might have a weird, pungent smell. We are on the go a lot. We travel a lot. My kids eat in the car and spill shit…..a lot. I don’t constantly clean my car and inspect for messes in every nook and cranny. The seats might be sticky and you may or may not be able to see out the window from the drawings my kids made for me after they fogged them up and drew in them with their dirty hands. I do clean it sometimes. It’s just never clean when I take other people places. It will still you get you where you need to go. It has an awesome stereo system and DVD player with a widescreen T.V. So you either want a ride or not.
Going To Yoga….EVERYDAY – This is recent in my life and I didn’t realize how much I needed it. Thank you JoRen for sharing it with me. I didn’t know how much I would enjoy it or how much I would get out of it. Not only am I learning more about myself on a spiritual level, I am clearing my mind of recent negativity and the depression and anxiety that has taken over. I am learning to meditate without going to class and balance my being with my breath. Yoga is for me. I go when Travis is home, without him. I go when he is at work and the kids are at school. Yoga has become my journey through myself, to myself.
Saying No – If I say “NO” I don’t really need to explain further or apologize for it.
You don’t need to apologize either!
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