As I sit awake this morning in the dark, before anyone else even has an idea of opening their eye lids, I wonder about so many things. This is my time to write and enjoy my coffee every day but I have so much going on right now that all I can think about is what else I should be getting rid of and that I should probably have accumulated some boxes by now. If my mind could somehow tone it down that would be nice.
At least I haven’t been having any trouble sleeping so I know my mind is still my friend.
I look out the window and see my horse that I never ride anymore. I just don’t have the time with home schooling and homework and life. He will be leaving tomorrow. While I’m bummed about this I know it’s for the best. He will be going somewhere he will get much more attention than he has been getting here in the past 6 months and more than he will get in the future here. Come to think of it, he probably won’t like going any more than we don’t want to see him go. He’s a stubborn ass hole just like me!
I have gotten rid of a lot of things already. Things we don’t use, were never going to use, were broken or just trash anyways. Every time I turn around I see more I could be getting rid of but then wonder if I should… This move will be a big one for us and I really don’t want to schlep every little thing we have with us. I would much rather start over, living a simpler life with my family and being able to enjoy each other more.
I am grateful I wake up everyday with a positive and optimistic outlook. Today will be a marvelous day!